Went through the whole spectrum of emotions today, Apprehension, Happiness, Sadness, Anxiety, Pity, Sympathy, Exasperation, Disappointment. Tired.... My system's not built for an onslaught like that. I didn't have the time or the brains to figure out this elementary problem in QM today. I didn't get the time to do much physics at all really - very sad about that.... But the strange part is that I'm happy over the fact that I'm sad about it! My emotions are taking on quantum states!!!! How kewl is that!
While therapy tends to be, in general, an elusive thing, Anti-Therapies have this evil propensity towards seeking one out... and it has to home in on you when you are coming out of a therapy session!!!!!!
It's been 3 years. 1095 days. Three Long Years. And in hindsight its seems so, ......not worthwhile. How ironic; you spend a criminal amount of time trying to find yourslf only to realize there is nothing to find! Atleast nothing new to find. sigh..... I guess one always 'knows' what one is really 'into'. why does it take so long to accept it?
I guess, I should count myself lucky that I'm still focused on what I really want to do, and spectacularly lucky in being able to bridge the gap between the 'day job' and 'my thing'. It is quite reassuring to 'know' that you have the will to stay focused and not compromise. Peace. But the time?
The time wasted, gets to you at times. And finding the resolve to actually work towards your dream is, well, not a walk in the park. Focus is one thing, Resolve is quite another. It's to be hoped that I don't take another 3 years to work out the Resolve issue!
A lot of Jazz and then ... Nada. It's not for the lack of passion or skill, though. Nor numbers, we have plenty of followers. Where is Moses when you really need him?
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. But, to get to your destination you'd better make sure you keep taking those steps............. However tiny your steps may be!
The mind is a fascinating thing, just when you think you've managed to chain the monster, it decides to pull a fast one on you! It's annoying how you can be surprised by your own thoughts and actions. How is that possible? it's almost like having this other person, who hasn't quite got it together,living in your brain? Are we all inherently schizophrenic or is it just me?
Ever since my unfortunate school days, my friends have lost little oppurtunity in flaming me, for my sense of humour.
"How do you keep gamindu happy in his old age? Tell him a joke when he's young" - one of their particular favourites. No one even bothered to kid me about 'my' ability to make a joke, it was that pathetic! Supposedly, ...- in those days that is. More recently certain students of mine have been trying to drive the point home though.
But, all this time I have staunchly believed that, these plebes were way too primitive for my advanced humour.
Sadly, however, my Bloggs have finally convinced me that my detractors were correct!